I have decided to stop blogging. For long. Okie- forever.

I realise its been affecting the people around me.. and then, its affecting me as well. There's no freedom... to express myself.. and also. sometimes, to convey a message to someone esle.

Of course, i would say there are good things about blogging till now - encouraging others. I am glad to hear some of them actually got inspired by my blog.. to be happy.. to be themselves... and, agreeing with my point of views. And the songs that i place in here...

I realise, i have been living in the world of others. Affected by others too much that, unknowingly i have been giving them power to control my life. I must end this... and before people starts to misunderstands me ... from my blog especially...

Thanks to the regular readers who have positive comments about it... and read it for pleasure ( hope my blog has bring life to those who are working and viewing out of boredom )... ^^ Sorry that i have to stop writing... I know who lor~! and those, who tagged me regularly..like ZL... Za, laogong.... YQ.. Chunnie.. knowing that i am sad, or in ultimate stress..and decided to encourage me.

And those, if i have... cause unhappiness from this blog. I sincerely apologise for that. From the bottom of my heart. Please forgive me and you will never be affected anymore.


=)


My last entry:

I have talked to hwee for hours. and cried for hours. My eyes were swollen.. and i realise the root of my whole problem. He was right, my heart is filled with emptiness. I have been trying very hard to make people like me... and, true enough, when i was assured that they like me, i will like myself more. I am living in the world of others... When i am not assured, i felt insecure..... i hate myself.... i am unhappy.

I care too much of what others expect of me. I care too much of how other thinks of me.

I finally thought it through...

and..


I must start to accept what's coming.. or going... and, most importantly, to accept myself for who i am, and start, loving myself.


when i have start to love myself, i will know how to truely love others. To help myself ... so i can help others too. I must be stronger now.

Thanks hwee. Really thank you....

Life is unpredictable. I might die one day. Anyway.. Not all will care. Other than people who loves me for who i am - My family, Hwee.. best friend, karen...buddies, Mich.. Slut ( prob )... ha...

=)

So.. before i end off:

I really want to thanks those who makes a difference in my life. Now, no more cyber me. ^^ I am going to be a new me. I am serious. And i hope, being the new me, can bring happiness to people around me... yap!!

I want to attract happy people~ and that would be you, YOU, and YOU~! If you are with me... like karen - everyday de... -_-"""


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Bless you all. And loves loves!

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Selina shall stop and kiss her cyber self.. her favourite blog, goodbye.





p.s: to dear za, i will add you on msn and we will keep in touch. Hope to catch a movie and hang out with you after my exams! =)

过去的批评嘲讽 let it go let it go
过去的轻蔑冷落 let it go let it go
有些人口不饶人却忘了瞧瞧自己
又有什么资格时刻都善良待人 let's move on
let's move on时刻都做好本分
let's move on
let's move on有些人心思浅薄绝不是宽容
自暴自弃的理由也许
确实也受过言语打击也许
从来也没有什么好际遇千万别将勇气深锁在阴影里我们又不会妨碍这世界继续美丽我知道我变漂亮了
我知道我被注意了曾难过
曾失落
微笑一下就过外在的美貌容易戳破内在的美好细水长流
我知道我变漂亮了
我知道我也豁达了不自卑
不埋怨
就算还差一点点用内涵弥补一切缺陷内在的美
迷住每个人的眼用内涵弥补一切缺陷内在的美
迷住每个人的眼






When fish ball and sotong ball just can't taste nice together..
they are ate seperately...probably, this is better. Thanks for everything. Keep it in my heart. Lock it. And miss it.



and

i can stop doing what i am doing.



well, afterall, i know, who can loves me for who i am.
and be by me, no matter, how much i have change........
I now know who truly loves me...

and its time i put in effort in this relationship.

Things seems to be easy as it seems now...

=)

P.s: James, take care when you are at Aussie! =) I will miss you de.. and i hope you will sms me the first thing you comes back.

Really sorry for not making time for you before you flies off to Aussie tonight.. and also, not sending you off.... ^-^ I will miss you and

stop complaining i am not good to you~i remember when your flight date!

P.p.s: Happy birthday Lawrence... sorry, didn't turn up at hwee's place today. Hope to go for sharing and celebrate your bird-day... and also, chew on liu-lian~ May you be well and happy... and you're one year older~ ^-^

Sat:

Went to celebrate Ken's 21st brithday and the usual gang... ^^ Had fun of course, and waiting for the photos from my pretty Anna~

And also, something interesting happened.... WE ( Anna, louis and Me ) found a three-legged hammie in a container.. abandoned. Louis being the tall one saw it and tapped me on my shoulder.. *point point* the container and i gasped!

Our decision? Rather, my~decision..

I brought it home to take care of it.. I sympathize the little baby hammie... and so, i decided to bring it home... %*^&*(%^% the irresponsible OWNER! And panda suggested i call it (him+her cause its gender is not identifiable) Xiao Feng~ hehe, my little xiao feng...

Will take a picture of my 3 cuties~!! ( as requested by DQ )

Happy birthday to Ken. The naughty one who disturbs me whenever i am trying to say something! ^^ Enjoy your actual birthday~ soon!

Happy birthday to Hui Xian~ Sorry that i can't join you guys out~! Hope you love your 21st birthday gift!!

Happy birthday to Gary too. Thanks for inviting me over.. but i didn't turn up. Hope you enjoyed it!

And thanks to sweet victor who wouldn't mind driving me home late at night... =) and the fact that it is pretty inconvenient to have a hamster home especially by train.

Big world vs small world:

My gosh, SLUT jie and TURTLE jeff.......... are bunk mates. And SELINA is their common topic now and then. haha~

PLUS

= Total Craziness. Trust me~ Can't wait to meet the both of them real soon!! ( which they have talked it out already~ WHOOPEE )

and... browsing through.. i miss the Sariputta girls, the girls who always remind each other to dress up when we gathered... Nice-girl Lola, Princessy dee, talented yi.. and Lovely Mich....

Dee's house for steamboat.. Mich edited it~

At lola's 21st:

Mich's first birthday celebration with us:

Same Same but different shirt for the five of us~

Ryan's farewell ( botak time )~

Hweeeee's cake~!Retro Dinner and Dance Night...

I miss you girls. I really do.......... *saddens*

Angelina Jolie:

Watching Style Star on television and trust me, i really think Angelina Jolie is every girl's dream to become of~

Everything about her, is so... perfect. She has the looks, she has the love for children, she has the gift of acting.. She has the sexiest and cool man Brad pitt. What esle can she ask for?

I simply loves her alluring eyes, hour glass body, pouting lips, cool tattoos and voluptuous hair!!!

the only bad thing about her: Snatching Brad pitt from our lovely - Jennifer Aniston. ( another favourite of mine~ )

Goddess.. Angelic face of Angelina Jolie:

Even when she was pregnant~ Her goddess character and look stays. and attractive as ever... let's admit, most singaporean or any other normal woman won't bother to be pretty when they are pregnant.

Its not being vain, but being confident about ourselves, being a mother-to-be~I want to be a loving, kind mommie and also, a beautiful one too.

When can i ever have Angelina Jolie's Chrisma, Coolness and the Confidence?

Answer: When I am being ME~

Being ourselves, feeling comfortable in our own skin brings out the best in ourselves. Like how Angelina jolie, brings out herself~attracting people and amaze people~

True?

Oh well, people,

Be confident of yourself and bring out the best! ^-^

Projects and Exams. Common term used in Universities. Schooling peeps. Sunday: A weekend for family to gather and relax.

Sunday for sel? A weekend to do project. It killing the five of us.. having to meet up on sunday to work on projects... and breaking free for that few minutes, Van took a photo of me~!

Look how restless..... and totally self destructive i can look:

Should have took our group picture...

People says, Women= Time x Money

And I add on to say, Project and Exams = Time x Beauty - My pimples are pooppping out. And my eye bags are increasingly obvious. Trust me... I think this is some kind of Uni-Syndrome. My beauty regime can't seems to help at all.

Caught movie with Victor on sat: The coffin. The context wasn't that scary. In fact, victor says I am scarying him instead..... fine. rating: 2.5/5.

and also,

Caught movie with the girls ( juan, ling ling, meow, huifen and dearie ).. Liang zhu aren't as bad as it was rated. Pretty funny.. and its a mixture of Liang shan bo and Zhu ying tai context and Romeo and juuliet context. rating: 3/5.

Anyways, flowers are girls best friend ( other than diamonds).. and i received them as my belated birthday from panda.

Thank you~!

Loves them, although they made me pretty mad at times~ Reminding them to sit down ( somehow, they love to stand up doing their work~! )

Here's when they are really really in their good behaviour... and sweetess moment..

BUT!!!! Don't be cheated by that~

Afterall.........

Being children.. they have their really naughty looks~

Still, they have their own adorable ways~of cheering me up ^-^ and because of their cuteness and their mischevious bits, i am starting to grow attach to this little ones.

Gonna miss them.

^-^

And thanks to someone who make my day~ Beautiful moments are for beautiful people.

I love listening to 98.7FM.

Trust me, sometimes, when you are in the bus, feeling really dull and dread the early morning.. and then, Mr Young and Vendetta played this song "Just stand up".. and with the first time hearing it, you are totally energized.

I love it when i started hearing it.. and I am looking massively for this song. *sigh* i couldn't find the mp3 version, but imeem is good enough!!




Its a inspiring song sang by all the really famous singers like Beyonce, Mariah, Carrie, Rihanna ( My favourite ), Fergie~ Mary J blige... all the big female singers. For your information, it is for the people who are contracted with cancer. =)

They need such songs.. cause even the fortunate me, who is kicking healthily alive needed such songs to perk me up.. to get over my depression over academic.

Enjoy listening if you feel like listening.

I love this:

If you fall
Dust if off, don’t let up
Don’t you know you can go be your own Miracle

If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up
Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what
Don’t give up
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Nice right?



HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO 2 mid october babies:

My Third AH YI~=) : May you stay pretty and healthy... ^-^ Happy biiirrtthhddaaayy~!! ( I know you are reading this in your office... haha) Don't kena catch okie?

and also,

Panda : Happy birthday Panda. =) May your dreams come true and be happy... after all we have been through. I just want you to be happy too~!